First off, hey everyone. I hope you all had lovely weekends spent with joy and happiness. If you found yourself struggling with anything this weekend, I hope your worries pass and sun shines down on you once again. I have two quotes to share with you all. I find I needed to hear them as I am restless with worry that my life is just not going to pan out.
“Feeling unsure and lost is part of your path. Don’t avoid this. See what those feelings are showing you and use it. Take a breath. You’ll be okay. Even if you don’t feel okay all the time.”
You’ll be okay. Even if you don’t feel okay all the time.
Moving in one week has left me worrying constantly. I am not very good at making friends, yet at college that seems to be an expectation. I am thrilled to begin my studies once again, but I constantly worry about failure. What if I can’t handle the courses? OR make friends? Everyone says this will all pass, and everything will be okay. I don’t feel okay but what will all this worrying do? Worrying will cause me to stress, stress leads to mountains of health issues. This is me, reminding myself, that it will be okay. Let the pain and anxiety in your stomach go. You will be okay.
“For just one second, look at your life and see how perfect it is. Stop looking for the next secret door that is going to lead you to your real life. Stop waiting. This is it: there’s nothing else. It’s here, and you’d better decided to enjoy it or you’re going to be miserable wherever you go, for the rest of your life, forever.”
It’s here, and you’d better decided to enjoy it or you’re going to be miserable.
I spent this weekend miserably crabby. I know it, too. I know my family was like “What is up with you?” Even though they kept quiet. They know I am going through a lull in life, and I have been in a little bit of a depression lately. But, I just kept digging myself into this deeper hole. I am worried about everything in my life. As I am writing this I have a pit in my stomach- it is like a tangled up ball of anxiety. I do not even exactly know why I have been feeling like this. I do know though, that just like the seasons, this will pass. We all need to remind ourselves of this when we feel like the world is crashing down. It will pass.
As I end this post, I am asking myself, and you, to remember to enjoy life. Enjoy the moments spent with your family. Enjoy the sun when it shines. We do not have enough time to be miserable.
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