How is it going? Life at college thus far has been pretty good. I spend most of my time studying- fun fact: I am afraid of failure. I have met some really good people and they are all special in their own way. Remember- for those in high school or stuck in some small, shifty town- more people exist. More awesome people are out there in this world than the shitty friend that lied to you or the boy who broke your heart. You will meet some of the most interesting and unique people in college. It will also be the time to shed your old high school self and become someone you really want to be. High school is horrible in the way it forms your into someone you may not really want to be, but you want to fit in so you be the person who will fit in.
Anyways, I woke up today and I felt something I have never really felt before: I felt disconnected with nature. I have been really busy with school and have not found the time to spend time with nature. It sounds kind of weird. But I have found I feel most at peace when I am exploring nature or just admiring the beauty the world has to offer. I acted on this! Always listen to you body, guys. So, I went for a run to Glen Park in River Falls and hiked around a bit. It felt like I was putting myself back together again. As you may know, I have been struggling with little nit picky things in my life lately. I have been trying to cope with these the best I can but it just has not been enough.
Everyone has their certain time and place. For me, bringing myself into nature is bringing myself into the hands of God. The best time for me to talk with Him is when I am out in nature- it is something about the open sky and flowing water that I feel most connected. In a way, talking to Him helps me understand what I am feeling. I lay out everything I am struggling with, everything I wish to be better, the people I pray for, hopes for my future, all things. Once I am done chatting, I walk (or run) back. By doing this, I feel like I have a free therapy session, but with the best therapist of all.
I would like to show you my favorite poem. Read it, and maybe you will understand why I feel this way.
Oh, Great Spirit,
whose voice I hear in the winds
and whose breath gives life to all the world, hear me.
I am small and weak.
I need your strength and wisdom.
Let me walk in beauty and make my eyes
ever behold the red and purple sunset.
Make my hands respect the things you have made
and my ears sharp to hear your voice.
Make me wise so that I may understand
the things you have taught my people.
Let me learn the lessons you have hidden
in every leaf and rock.
I seek strength, not to be superior to my brother,
but to fight my greatest enemy – myself.
Make me always ready to come to you
with clean hands and straight eyes,
so when life fades, as the fading sunset,
my spirit will come to you
There ya go, feel free to leave me a message!