I have not had much inspiration to write lately. If you guys have something you are struggling through or have any ideas of topics to write about seriously, send me a quote or a blurp of what’s going on or just some good topics and I can write about it. It’ll help a lot- just shoot me a message on social media, all of my accounts are hooked up on my blog.
But in the meantime, let me talk about emotions. I have a bad problem of keeping my emotions buried far far away. I ignore my emotions, but let me tell you: emotions need to be felt. Tonight, actually, my emotions decided that they needed to be felt. For months I have been disregarding all sorts of my emotions. I think that if I act like my emotions aren’t there, then they will go away. But they don’t. And my emotions will never go away unless I deal with them first hand.
I have been really sick for about 3 weeks. My immune system has just not been doing well. It started out with the stomach flu, moved into a heavy cough, and now I am sick with a head cold and cough. It has been 10x harder to deal with everything in my life. Being sick has just ripped all energy out of me. I am tired all the time, I am probably not eating right, I am lacking essential vitamins and minerals and overall I have just been pretty low.
So like I said, being sick makes everything harder. I have not been taking mental care of myself because I have just been too tired. Taking care of yourself mentally is really hard when you are just too physically drained.
Back to emotions. Tonight I fell apart, and that is hard for me to admit because I try to stay strong all the time and I think that if I hide my emotions then I am not weak. I think my emotions are too heavy and I feel like I need ignore them in order to get through the day. At least, that is how I have been dealing with it for the past year.
I can’t vouch for these words because I am fortunate to have a friend here in River Falls that is very wise and helped me tremendously through the night and his words made the biggest impact on me. He told me that I can’t keep hiding my emotions, they are dragging me down and I will be so much better off once I learn that IT IS OKAY TO HAVE EMOTIONS. I need to let go of my past, and focus on moving forward. I have been stuck in the same spot for months because I cannot deal with things properly but after tonight I feel like I can really push forward and start to move on. I don’t need the people in my past in my future anymore. I cannot keep holding on to my past like I have been. I have spent too much time doing that and I have not been living my present because I have been so stuck on trying to fix the past.
“The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.”
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Much love, Rosie